Universe we need to talk. First, thank you for the wonderful people you have put in my path. I love all of them for their unique perspective on the world, their humour, and for caring about others. They are all teaching me so much. Some of them are struggling though and could use some extra help right now so if you could look after them for me I would appreciate it. I also want to thank you for being there for me every day, but I could do with a little less of your humour at my expense. Stop laughing it is not funny! Fine it is a little funny, but enough already. Baboons shaking their butts at me, really, that was the best way to get the message across? I’m sure you need some comic relief now and then considering the seriousness you must deal with on a daily basis. Yes I know, time doesn’t work the same way for you. But, don’t you get tired? I know I am tired.
Okay, what is with the crazy energy where I feel like I am stuck in a time warp? Operating in two time zones at once is a bit unsettling. Some things are moving at the speed of light and other things are moving so slow I could slip into a coma. It makes me dizzy and clumsy, hence the broken finger and multiple bruises from bumping into things. You made me a small delicate woman without an ounce of gracefulness in motion. That is not fair, going through life with the grace of a new born colt is humbling. Oh, I get it, thanks a lot (sarcasm is not lost on the universe).
Why did you encourage me to write this blog? I have absolutely no idea what to write about. I am tired. Yes, I know I said that already. I need a vacation. I think I will go get my passport and if you could please streamline the process for me that would be great. I would like to go somewhere warm, that isn’t hell, and lay on a beach for a few days. I want to ride a horse through the surf. I want to walk along the beach holding hands with someone special. Yes, I get what I need not what I want, so let me rephrase those statements. That is what I need at the moment!!!! If you are so wise I don’t understand why I need to be so specific all the time. So I hereby give notice that I need to go somewhere warm around the middle to the end of March. I will go by myself if I have to but it would be much more fun if I had someone to share it with!
You have helped me reach a point where I am walking through the world with my heart wide open, thank you for that. However, why does it have to hurt so much? I can’t watch the news without crying for goodness sake. I’m still closing my heart off sometimes, yes I know. When the risks are big I close it a bit. Self preservation, or perhaps fear of being hurt. Yup hurt, that’s it. I have had enough hurt thank you very much. So if I keep open around everyone and trust that everything will be fine, it will all be fine. The pain and heartbreak are what give meaning and depth to love and joy, huh. You and your paradoxes, jeesh. I think you need to work on that! You helped me be the cheeky type, so deal with it!
Sometimes I want to yell and scream at you for the injustices and suffering I see. I know us humans have created this world of materialism, war and competition. What are we thinking, oh I see. Ego based autonomous cruise control when we need heart based manual connections with others. Shit it would be so simple to feed and house everyone. No one wants to spend their own money to do it though. When are people going to realize that we and everything else on the planet are connected? When are we going to wake up? Perhaps if karma was instantaneous we would see how our thoughts, words and deeds ripple out across the planet. It doesn’t look good at the moment and I am truly sorry for my part in that. I apologize for the rest of us as well. I am not sure what one small fifty three year old woman can do but I will attempt to change my part of the world. This Sanskrit mantra just popped into my mind, so I will share it.
Lokah Samasta Sukhino Bhavantu
May all beings everywhere be happy and free and may the thoughts, words and actions of my own life contribute in some way to the happiness and freedom for all beings.
This world is so fucked up that if you tell someone you love them, it means something different to each person. I actually love everyone who is in my life and fall in love with them all over again every time I see them. I even fall in love with strangers that I meet. It is just that, pure love. When I see that light shining out of their eyes I get excited and the light in me responds to it. I might tease them a bit about their little quirks but there is no judgement on my part. By the way when I hug you I mean it! Have you noticed that when most people hug they lean to the left and if they leaned to the right instead their hearts would touch. I dare you to try it next time I hug you. It is a little uncomfortable at first, but try it you just might like it! We had better say something like hug to the right so we don’t bang heads though, I have enough bruises. Universe I really love people! Don’t tell them that though, I have an image to uphold lol. That’s it isn’t it, upholding that false image of ourselves is what gets us into trouble. Defining ourselves by the things we own, the wealth we do or do not have, our profession, people we know and how we look is all just an illusion. If we could just define ourselves by the beautifully immense love that our heart holds the world would be much better off. Well universe, thanks for the chat! I am going to go spread some love at the grocery store and the coffee shop. Wish me luck and love
Lean to the right when you hug
Love to you all